You're worth so much
It'll never be enough
To see what you have to give
How beautiful you are
Yet seem so far from everything
You're wanting to be
You're wanting to be
Tears falling down again
Tears falling down
You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection
You mean so much
That heaven would touch
The face of humankind for you
How special you are
Revel in your day
You're fearfully and wonderfully made
You're wonderfully made
Tears falling down again
Come let the healing begin
You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection
You're worth so much
So easily crushed
Wanna be like everyone else
No one escapes
Every breath we take
Dealing with our own skeletons, skeletons
You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection
Won't you believe, yeah
Won't you believe, yeah
All the things I see in you
You're not the only one
You're not the only one
Drowning in imperfection
XDD
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Heylo! Happy New Year guys!
Im SOO Sorry 4 not updating!
Yesterday I went to Orchard, bought two shirts and one denim 3-quarters... Anyway 2day I went to Church...Actually the Youth Group quite fun. Then go Plaza S, then go back home lorgh. 7+ we go reunion dinner...the food was...sort of disgusting. LOL. Anyways now almost 2am...gtg...But Oh yeAH! the tag replies!
ZiTing-Hey Pikachu! U r Pikachu, right? Anywayz thx 4 tagging! YiXin-I think so...not sure...I got the worst memory. Lol. XinYi-HNY to u 2! Anyway I would definitely choose FuHua(= XueMing-Sure thing!XDD Azuki/SH-HNY to u 2!! HuiFang-Ohsure! Will link ASAP!!
That's all for today!! G'night and Happy New Year to y'all again!!
Drowning in Inperfection... 9:45 AM
quiz yea
Monday, January 19, 2009
Tagged by Serena...so here.
1. What is your full name? Ilyda Chua Kai Yin 2. Do you like your name? Yeps, it is unique. 3. How long have you liked the person you currently like? 5 yrs...my sis... 4.Have you kissed anyone before? lol, no wayy... 5. Did you cry today? nope~~ 6. What were you doing at 8a.m. this morning? flag raising, duh. 7. What were you doing an hour ago? play com 8. What are you currently doing now? reading fanfic n doing this quiz. 9. Who last texted you a message? XinYi 10. Have you told anyone I love you today? no... 11. Are you missing anyone now? Loraine, my ex-BFF from Outram. 12. Any plans for tomorrow? go school duh. 13. What was the reason behind the last time you cried? I think when Ms Diana died...yeah. 14. Anyone you wanna be with right now? My ex-BFFs, Loraine, Lyn, Casy, Jady. 15. Have you kissed anyone whose name started with an "s"? Nope.... in fact i didnt kiss anyone... 16. Name someone who made you smile today and why. XinYi. Throwing rubbish at Cantona..;. 17. Name someone whose name starts with a "z". Zi Xin 18. Which friend of yours stays near you? Eunice, Siew Hua 19. Do you prefer to call or text? Text 21. Can you live a day without handphone or television? Yeps. 22. Are you mad at anything now? my damn teacher, lol so much hw... 23. Do you think relationships are worth it? no. Some1 always gets their heart broken in the end... 24. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital? Uhh...idk... 25. Who was your last and second last hug from? Lyn, rock climbing thing, Casy, becos she's hyper. 26. What does the last message in your handphone say? I forgot liao... 27. Define life. A gift that's greatness is depended on the reciever. 28. Do you hate anyone? YES! Cantona n Aravin. Idiots. 29. Who was the last person you called? XinY 30. Who usually sends the most text messages in a month? This mth is Loraine. 31. Tag 10 people to do this quiz 1)Xin Yi (fren) 2)Siew Hua 3)JiaWen 4)Anice 5)Audrey(NanHua) 6)Pamela 7)XinHui 8) Elizabeth 9)Aly 10)AudreyTan
Drowning in Inperfection... 11:22 PM
Live.Laugh.Love.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Heya! Sec sch life rockx...n sux... as well. I'm joining NPCC!! Unbelievable yeahh? Anyway that dumb Calligraphy thing was a waste of precious time. I'd rather be in NPCC practice. Lolz. I hate the idioticboysinmyclasswhomakeupstupidrumors. I'm not even going to say it, but Clue 1: Humiliation. Clue 2:Suicide. My BFFs are still XinYi, JuYing(Ithink), and Inez. Inez not so much, but she's still a gd fren. Anywayz, I'm still a Twilight addict, but I'm definitely livin sec sch life MY way. Ciao! Ilyda, MissIndependentxx.
Drowning in Inperfection... 3:03 AM
Updates!
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Hey!! I luv Secondary Sch life! My frens are rly awesome, especially XinYi, Eunice n Inez. but Math n Science n CL very hard lol. Lit, Home Ec, English n Music is still my fav subjects...Chinese sux... Btw, r any of u going bac to RPS? Can tell mi when? I miss RPS already, but no one in my class frm RPS so they cant go with mi. Puh-leaze tell mi if ure going!!
Drowning in Inperfection... 12:05 AM
New Town Sec
Sunday, January 11, 2009
My appeal for transfer was successful... I M OFFICIALLY a NEWTOWNER. I'll miss my old BFFs...Loraine,Casy,Jady,Hinyin. ILY GUYS 4EVER!! My new frens r Inez, Eunice and HY! They r absolutely awesome. History n Mth sux...n science...I still dk wht is bio,chem n phy...idc... Whatever. Anywayz, miss all the ex-Rulangnites n my Outramian BFFs already...Seeya! MissRandomGirl-Ilyda.
Drowning in Inperfection... 4:24 AM
Perfect Day by Hoku
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Drowning in Inperfection... 11:24 PM
UPDATE!!!!
Monday, January 5, 2009
HEYY!! I'm already starting to warm up to Outram Sec. I made a few frens, like 6, and a BFF frm FMPS, who has third eye.Creepy!!!! The CCAs damn nice, got rock-climbing, water polo, swimming etc.Orientation was INSANITY. They tell stories about SAKURA (made 2 girls cry) the locked up toilets, the haunted swimming pool etc. And the telematch is GROSS, need to put ur head into flour. Ugh. 2day is CCA selection, tried volleyball, netball n rock climbing. Btw here's a quiz!!
01. What have you been doing recently? - Reading fanfic and talking to my frens!
02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off? -Cant be bothered.
03. What happened at 10.00am today? -CCA selection, YAY!
04. When did you last cry? - When Ms Diana died...-starts crying-
05. Believe in fate/destiny? -yeahh
06. What do you want in your life right now? - Enjoy sec sch life!
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood? - Nothing, lazy 2 open the umbrella. :p
08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed? -LAPTOP!! Yayyz.
9. What bottom are you wearing now? -PE shorts?? Reminds mee of Rulang.. -sniffs-
10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say? -IDK.
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated? - Nope, easygoing all the way. :D
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone? - yepps...Loraine's Outram sec uniform...
13. What was the last movie you caught? -TWILIGHT!!! (it sucked)
14. What are you proud of? -My unique personality. :DD
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say? -Idk, lolz.
16. What was the last song you sang out loud? -That dumb Outram Sch Song...
Do you have any nicknames? -Idc.
18. What does your last received text message say? -'Today must wear tie?' Loraine.
19. What time did you go to bed last night? -11...
20. Are you currently happy? - YEPSS!! RLY HYPER!!!
21. Who gives you best advice? - My gfs, of course.
22. Do you eat whipped cream out of a can? -Nahh, with strawberries.
23. Who did you talk on phone last night? - Loraine n Casy.
24. Is anything bugging you right now? -NOO!!! HAPPI LIFE HAPPI LIFE!
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh? - Lyn, being Drama Queen...
26. Do you wear toe socks? -No laa.
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from? -Mum. (Phone's on silent)
28. Have you ever had your heartbroken? -Nope!!
29. What annoys you most in a person? -Fashion and shopping queens, persistent ppl.
30. Do you have a crush on anyone? - Nahh, every1 at Outram ugly.
31. Have you ever done cocaine? -Uhmm...what's that?
32. What is the colour of your room? -Beige.
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar? -NO! I have a CLEAN, SPARKLING RECORD. -shows record-
34. Do you believe in the saying : talk is cheap? -Ive nv heard of it..
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed? -MEEE!! Duh.
36. Who was the last person to hug you? -Joel. (lil bro)
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed? -i never kissed any1.
38. Do you have a life? -Yepps!
39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die? -No way!
40. What is the reason behind your profile song? -Dun hav.
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream? -Uh. Renesmee Cullen?
42. Last time you smiled? -NOW!!!
43. Have you changed this year? -Yepps, LOADS!!
44. What are you listening right now? -Nothing!
45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this? -No...why?
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed? -I WALK WITH THEM OPEN ! DUH!!
47. Is there a quote you live by? -Live.Laugh.Love.
48. Do you want someone you cannot have? -Yepps, I want Alice n Nessie Cullen as BFFs!
49. Have you ever played an instrument? -Recorder n piano.
50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week? -Uhh..skipping sch?
51. What are you doing last night at 11pm? -Getting ready 2 sleep....duh...
52. Are you happy with your love life right now? - Ahem. I dont have or want one.
53. What song best describe your love life? -I DUN HAV LAA!!
54. Does the person know that you like him/her? -points to above-
55. Who always make you laugh? -Casy and Lyn.
56. Do you speak other language other than English? -Chinese, French. Sometimes.
57. Favourite website(s)? -Fanfiction.net
58. What's your middle name? -Dun hav.
59. What are you doing tomorrow? - Go to sch!!! YIPPEE!!!
60. What do you think you are like? -Hyper, unique, stubborn.
61. Who will you choose to die with? -ALONE!!!
62. Where have you been today? -School, rain.
63. What game do you play often? -Dun play.
64. Who are you missing right now? - Primary sch frens, duh.
65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose? - FREN!!!
66. What are you doing right now? -Typing this quiz and eating crackers.
67. Which primary school are you from? -Rulang Pri,duhh.
68. Name 3 colours that you like? -Blue, Gold, Maroon. GO RULANG!
69. What emotion you like to show? -Content.
70. What is your life to you? -Precious and painful.
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do? -Deal with it or juz forget it.
72. Who did you last chat in msn today? -Uhh..December? November? Notsure leh...
73. Who do you admire most? -BELLA SWAN!!!
74. Which month are you born in? -December
75. How are you feeling right now? -HYPER!
76. What is the time now? -5.06 pm
77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is? - Idk, nv check tagboard/
78. What colour did you use to dye hair? -My hair color is natural.
79. Why are you doing this test? -I'm bored.
80. What do you do when you're moody? -Read.
81. At which age you wish to get married? -27?
82. Who is more important to you? - Family n frens.
83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do? -Make the most of it.
84. Who is the person you trust the most? -BFFs.
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain? -Uhh, Ive seen it b4.
86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be? -Have a perfect life!
87. What is your goal for this year? -Have a great sec sch life!!
88. Do you believe in eternity love? -Uh, not rly.
89. What feeling do you love most? -Contentness n happiness.
90. Do you really think its Global Warming now? -Yeps!
91. What feeling do you hate most? -Being pestered or interrupted. Oh yeah, or if some1 insults Twilight.
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours? -Obviously.
93. Do you believe in God? -Yeps, Im Christian.
94.who cares for u the most? -Uh. Family.
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? -Family n Frens.
96. What will you bring when you fight? -Whatever I need.
What have you done regretted doing in your whole life? -Doing the thing that made me depressed....I shall not name it.
98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you? -I care for myself.Duh.
99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you? -He will be put through physical n mental torture. That's a promise.
100. How do you feel now? -Getting less hyper...
Drowning in Inperfection... 12:40 AM
Profile.
Me, Myself and I.
i'm an angel i'm a devil sometimes i'm in between;
My name is Ilyda. You may NOT call me any other name except for that.
Best friends forever; that's what we used to say.
I'm 12 going on 13, and in New Town Secondary School. I luv my gfs and bfflz.
it's where she lies; broken inside.
I live in S'pore, duh, and is always by the computer. ALWAYS.
looks don't matter, but yeah, anyway;
I have the typical dark hair, dark eyes, insanely-overdone tan due to the neverending heat...
don't give up, it's not too late; we're really just messing with fate.
I LOVE Shopaholic, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, The Mediator, Harry Potter and Maximum Ride.
And you've got your share of secrets; and I'm tired of being last to know.
I like writing fanfiction, reading, listening to music, playing basketball, swimming and daydreaming.
it's my life; it now or never.
I'm a 'social butterfly/outcast'. Really depends. I am imperfect, just like everyone else:)
So, what's my life like?
-School. comes with homework. = takes up most of my time. -Time. I barely have time to do anything during school days. Except listening to music, courtesy of my Ipod. -Breaks. That's why I enjoy breaks. Weekends, June hols, December hols... -Reading.I enjoy reading. I read all kinds of books, but always reread the Twilight Saga regularly :P -Technology.I am in love with the computer.And my ipod. And the Tv. And...well, you get the picture. -Entertainment. I'm using them all the time if I'm not at school, or doing homework. -Stuff. I check my mail, read fanfiction, and write fanfiction regularly. -Social Status. I love my friends & gfs. XD I don't have that many true frens, but for th few real fens I have, ily!! -Rest. Yes, I sleep at night. -Reasons. Even though I believe is it completely and utterly pointless.
About me.
-I do stuff based on my moods,not because I can't.
-I get annoyed very easily so watch out.
-I can be super gullible at times.
-I will do anything if you make me feel guilty.
-I'm nice to you if you're nice to me.
-I can lack common sense at times.
-I am quiet, well-mannered, well-behaved, and very, very, violent.
-Note that I'm not insensitive. I just don't CARE.
-I feel that simplicity is always the best.
-When I'm in a good mood,take advantage of me.
-WARNING! If I'm NOT in a good mood,don't try to annoy me,watch out and steer clear.
Pointless Desires.
-An Audi. Always loved them.
-An iPhone.
-A laptop.Not the best...but its a laptop all the same.
-A Sony Ericson Walkman.YAYY!!
-New DS.
-An Aston Martin. THEY ARE SO COOL!
-The whole collection of BTVS cd's.
-All of Hillsong's albums.
God, am I shallow or what?!
Desires.
-To have someone whom I can fully trust Um. Sort of..
-To get at least all B's for PSLE. CHECK.
-Get into Fairfield Methodist. UNSUCCESSFUL.
-Get express for PSLE!! CHECK.
-To strive for the best for everything.
-To have the perseverance to stay awake in boring subjects.
-To be more self-disciplined.
-To be less untidy.
-To be more conscientious and hardworking.
-To learn to play the piano.
-To learn to play the guitar.
-To learn to play the drums.
Adores.
-Music.10% of my life.
-Reading.10% of my life.
-Computer.15% of my life.
-Cars.5% of my life.
-Chocolate.15% of my life.
-Popularity.5% of my life.
-Entertainment.20% of my life.
-Education.20% of my life.
-Friends&Family.100% of my life.